I'm so HIP!

Ok. Not really. But I do have an improved hip. Guess that doesn't make me "hip" though does it.

On Valentine's Day I under went a hip repair on my left hip arthroscopicly. Minimal invasion. I had a labrum tear with impingement. (My hip had developed a boney tip like a bone spur that was damaging my labrum cartilage, causing pain when walking or any other hip movement.)

Now that boney protrusion has been sawed off & the labrum repaired. Now I have to use crutches for a month & 3 months of physical therapy. I'll be better than ever when I get done. I hope. :-)

Thank you CMRC & TOC for wonderful medical care. Especially Dr. Jackson & my recovery nurse Monique.

Me

I hope to become a better me this year. I have soo much room or sooo many areas in great need of improvement. Physically, emotionally, mentally, and spiritually. I hope that as I work on one area of me at a time that the growth will also strengthen me in the other areas as well.

For the "physical" me, I want to be healthier. Ok, thinner too. Can I say "thinner" when I'm not thin to begin with? Oh, well, I know what I mean. I hope you do too. Since I've been a historical failure with dieting, I'm just not going to do it anymore. But I can eat healthier. I can drink more water and less Coke. I can increase my "activities" - and get off my bottom more. So, that's my goal. One week at a time.

Emotionally. Well this one is really personal, but since I'm the only one who reads this blog, I'm okay sharing. About 5 years ago I had gotten to the point I cried. All. The. Time. It was horrible. Agonizing. I hated being so blue all the time. I was diagnosed with clinical depression. Again. (I was diagnosed 10-12 years earlier. Did therapy. And the zombie drugs. AWFUL experience.) I refused therapy this time - I really was/am fine with my life. I just cried. A lot. So I opted for meds. Again. But I told my doctor, "I dont want the kind that turns me into a zombie. I would rather feel sadness than to feel nothing." He gave me a prescription that has worked well with time. Originally I was only supposed to be on it for 6 months to level all the chemicals out that cause depression. Then one year. Then two. Then "you probably will never come off the meds." Well I am. I used to take 5 of the pills a day. It has been a very slow process, but I will and I am coming off it. It started with alternating 5 today, 4 tomorrow, 5 the next day, and so on. For a month. Originally my doctor said for two weeks then do only 4 a day. Nope didn't work. Had to do that for a month, then 4 for a month, then alternating 4 & 3 for a month. I am finishing up my first week of 3 a day. So far so good. I'll do this slow decrease until (A) I am off them entirely or (B) to the lowest dose possible. And try again. I hope.

Mentally. Well coming off the anti-depressants is key here. I hope mentally I can do this. I really want to be off the drugs. But I also don't want to spend my life crying over nothing either. With that aside, I want to read more. I love reading. So much can be learned from reading. I hope to increase in wisdom this year. I want to be smart.

Spiritually. I know that I can improve leaps in this area. Reading my scriptures habitually again. Doing a serious study of the scriptures. Now that I am a sunday school teacher, I have no choice but to read & study more. Daily. I want to improve in amount of time devoted to prayer & meditation. I want to be more confident and more bold in sharing my love of my Saviour and my testimony in Him.

I am hoping to progress one week at a time. If my goal is one week and I succeed 3-4 days then I've got a 50% success rate going. And i can reset/renew my goal next week. But if my goal is for one month and I fail on the 4th day, I tend to say/think 'I can't. So I give up. Here's hoping for a better week and a better me! :-)

Happy New Year 2012

I hope everyone's new year is off to a great start. Any resolutions?

Me? Just the usual. Lose weight. Eat better. Exercise more. Get more organized. Finish home re-no to get it ready for a for sale sign. How many will I actually succeed at? All I hope, but especially finishing the home re-no and get it sold.

Pinterest

I don't post because I'm a Pinterest addict.  There's no sense in lying.  I'm addicted to Pinterest!  There!  I've said it.

I'm Drinking from the Saucer

I've not been enjoying life to the fullest lately due to health issues, but I realized, after hearing this poem read aloud at a training conference I attended recently, that it's been my choice NOT to enjoy my life as fully as I can. Forgive me as I go back in history just a bit.

Several years ago, I was diagnosed with a bone disease that is painful and potentially crippling. For one who always took for granted the ability to do whatever I wanted with my limbs, this was scary to say the least.

Being strong in my beliefs and faith, I sought the comfort of a blessing by one who holds the priesthood authority in my faith. My husband. For those of you that don't belong to my faith, this may sound odd. It may bring me ridicule from some, but that's ok. I know what I know. Anyhow, I digress. My husband worried he would not be able to attune himself to the whisperings of the Holy Ghost and bless me with the words of our Father due to his own desire to see me well. Even tho he knew there is no cure for ON (osteonecrosis). We sought the help of a dear friend who also holds the Priesthood authority to offer me a blessing.

I didn't seek for healing. Or a cure. I only hoped for comfort. I did not speak aloud my desire for I knew my Heavenly Father already knew my desire. I was blessed that if I would remain firm in my beliefs and do those things I know to be good and right that I would always be able to endure what came. With minimal and bearable pain. That I would find comfort and support from the angels who surround me found within my family and friends.

And I have.

My pain from my disease and all the procedures has been bearable. Doctors are amazed. My surgeon does not understand why the disease is progressing so slowly. But I do. Heavenly Father promised me this. I've drawn much comfort from His Blessing that He put upon my head thru the mouth of another. I am blessed. I am drinking from the saucer. I pray you are too.


Drinking From The Saucer
by John Paul Moore
 
I've never made a fortune,
And I'll never make one now
But it really doesn't matter
'Cause I'm happy anyhow

As I go along my journey
I'm reaping better than I've sowed
I'm drinking from the saucer
'Cause my cup has overflowed

I don't have a lot of riches,
And sometimes the going's tough
But with kin and friends to love me
I think I'm rich enough

I thank God for the blessings
That His mercy has bestowed
I'm drinking from the saucer
'Cause my cup has overflowed

He gives me strength and courage
When the way grows steep and rough
I'll not ask for other blessings for
I'm already blessed enough

May we never be too busy
To help bear another's load
Then we'll all be drinking from the saucer
When our cups have overflowed
 

My MoodBoard

I would just love to have this! Gonna work on achieving it!!

My Master Bedroom Plan Moodboard

Celebrate Family 2011

As a family, our favorite FALL activities are:

• Getting outside -- After hiding from the heat all summer, we love to get outside!
• Playing in the leaves
• Camping
• Family Time around the Fire Pit!
• Hunting -- Okay, well not all of us, but I'm the only one who doesn't.  Hubby, Son, and the Daughter LOVE it!  All aspects of it.  The tracking, the waiting, the adrenaline rush when they see something ... all the way to the harvest, believe it or not.  I'm just the cook - can't take the other "stuff".  I am a City Girl transplanted into the Boonies...
• Preparing the house for Thanksgiving
• EATING a Thanksgiving Feast as a connected family!
• When the kiddos were younger, it was also:
• Fall Baseball League - Son
• Soccer - Daughter

What is it that you do as a family during the Fall?