But I do... Have you ever found yourself in the quandary of wanting something, yet not wanting it...?
My Hubby and I are going to see our son in one week to be with him for his birthday! Haven't missed one so far - don't really want to miss any... While traveling out to see him in Idaho, we're going to make a BIG loop of the US. We're driving you see, because we've never been out west. He's never been past Louisiana and Mississippi and I've not been further than Mississippi. We're very excited to see our son. We haven't seen him in 7 months. He married almost a year ago, and moved there where his wife's family is. We're very excited to see the US.
But we're leaving behind our baby girl. As well as our furry children. Our daughter is not able to go and must stay behind for work. The motel doesn't allow pets. Though our little Pomeranians don't take up much room, I don't think it's the right thing to do, to "sneak" them in as has been suggested to us. Our daughter is an "adult" to the world, but to us - she's still our baby.
We're a very close family. When our son moved away, I thought my heart had a chunk of it torn from my very chest. It's been very hard not being able to see him. We had never been apart. Now we are "choosing" to leave our baby girl for almost 2 weeks. And to go so far away... The very thought of it makes my heart ache and my stomach twist...
So I'm happy to be able to see my son again and to be able to touch him again, but so sad and so reluctant to leave my daughter and my furry children as well. My Hubby and I sacrificed so much so I could be a SAHM and I really enjoyed it. I loved being with my kids. My son wasn't ever in a big hurry to move out until he married and neither is my daughter. We truly are close.
My son and his wife talk about moving down here closer to us one day. I sure hope so. I don't know if I can put myself through this again. What am I saying? I haven't even actually done it yet.
At this moment because I'll leave so much behind - though 2 weeks seems like just a short while at any other time (it seems like an eternity right now) I almost want to smack my son for moving away so far and putting me through this heartache! :-) How I pray that this "2 week trip" doesn't turn into an eternity away from my daughter...
She's my 2nd best friend -- Dear Hubby being my 1st.
What would you do if you were in my shoes? Would you go? Would you not go?